poor my baby boy~~~

Elyas not feeling well since last week (or more to several weeks). he has cold continuously since last month (baik kejap pastu kena balik), got gastroenteritis (vomit and diarrhea or stomach bug), less appetite, and Sunday his left eye swollen.

the cold probably from cold weather. because we already start send him to nursery, i give him oil fish and multivitamin liquid to develop his immunisation, though i am not kind a mum that panic if her baby got sick. is it strange if i say; beside disturb nightsleep, i don’t mind at all if Elyas get cold or never think to “sterile” our house with dettol/ bacteria killer spray or main tanah guling2 because i think baby need to get those things to avoid he growing up  as oversensitive to surround environment toddler/person (this is my personal opinion and i know that every mum has her own opinion on how to bring up a child)

the gastroenteritis is vomiting and diarrhea symptom that cause by virus. this one quite worrying me because we don’t have any clue how he got this..this could be from raw meat or from other person or his own poop if touch then insert his fingers into his mouth…  everytime Elyas got gastroenteritis, he threw up like crazy (mcm exorcist pun ade, yang muntah terpancut2 keluar tu) and diarrhea… because he knew that his stomach not okay he lost his appetite.. minum susu pun tak moh…  sian anak Mama, kurus terus.

about the appetite. we went for weighed him on his 13 months. after like 2 months from the last weighed he only added 0.08kg!!! the health visitor (HV) consulted me what i give him…. and i found out that i done it the other way around. i should give him less rice or pasta but more sauce that rich with fat because he need instant energy and rice/pasta take longer to digest. so HV suggest that i put all fat as possible; milk,cheese,butter, chicken, yogurt, cheese to eat in his daily diet.. hehehe.. patutlah anak aku kurus tak macam anak omputih!! now I changed his diet.. put more fat (but when he got gatroenteritis, i stoped give dairy things, just plain rice porridge with some vege and chicken) in his food and give more yogurt and cheese for snack.

then on Sunday, his left eye swollen and have many discharge (sakit mata tapi tak merah cam sakit mata yang biasa tu).. we became very panic when at 2 am he was crying like crazy.. he refused to cuddle or milk. Adi called NHS emergency to ask for some help.. when Adi told the nurse, she asked “is he having cold?” and yes he is having cold now. and then the nurse said it happen because the cold virus enter the eyes when he rub his nose then rub his eyes.. we never heard about this before but from the nurse said this is common here. she told us not to worried, just wash Elyas’ hands and face regularly.. alhamdulillah, his eyes seem better today..

sorry Elyas, Mama & Abah don’t have any experience with baby sickness before and you’re our “guinea pig”… hehehe.. but we have learnt a lot from you.. so maybe adik-adik nanti Mama & Abah lagi tau nak buat ape..

Published in:  on February 9, 2010 at 11:51 am Comments (3)

HATIKU BERBUNGA-BUNGA

JPA baru keluarkan pekeliling baru yang MEMAKSA semua pelajar tajaan Kerajaan yang akan tamat tahun ni pulang berkhidmat di Malaysia termasuklah suami terchenta- ADI…

when he told me that news, we were quite shocked and poning kopalo den mikir because suddenly we must go back to Malaysia despite Adi already planned to stay here for another 2 years (though I am still don’t know either to stay in UK or not). but after deeeeeeepppppppppply thinking about this and discussed for 2 days, we decided to go back to Malaysia first, then if Adi have opportunity maybe he can come back to UK.  although the letter was something that unexpected and unpleasant at first but the more we think about living in Malaysia, the more we become so excited.. like my entry title “hati ku berbunga-bunga”.

if before we were in the middle between going back or stay. the thing that want us to stay is Adi want to finish his UK RIBA part 3 and some money (IF I CAN GET A PROPER JOB). however, the economy in UK and stricter regulation for foreigner to work in UK makes our future unclear (and I hate uncertainty situation) . with this letter, we don’t have any reason to stay (or feel guilty if Elyas & me back to Msia for good and Adi stay in UK) because WE (or actually ADI) MUST GO BACK TO MALAYSIA.

we asking around about job in Malaysia and we found that architect post pretty easy to get but not sure about civil engineer like me, but no worries lah, I AM SURE I can do something in Malaysia though as tukang jahit (if anybody remember I said that one of my “dream” is become a tukang jahit because I can stay at home :wink: ). We can “see” our future in Malaysia, how to organise (but of course we need to struggle for first several months). Plus I already sick to death living in oversea and my heart and mind already in malaysia.

according to our “new” plan. Adi and Elyas are going back at mid/the end of August because JPA will give ticket flight for Adi. but I stay here until early October because i need to submit my dissertation on 30th Sept. so i need to stay alone and beraya alone without hubby and Elyas this year…   :cry: :cry: :cry:

Published in:  on February 7, 2010 at 10:50 pm Comments (6)

Happy Birthday to Me!

Happy birthday to my lovely wife, the mother of my child.

Hope the days upon us are blessed by Allah, and are filled with happiness and a sense of satisfaction in all that you have accomplished.

On this your special day, I pray for you. I pray for smiles and love, for friends that are true. I pray for sunshine, for warmth and tenderness. I pray for unexpected moments of joy and laughter. But most of all, I pray for peace for you.

I am thinking of you on your birthday and holding you close to my heart. My prayer for you this day and everyday is for a sense of fulfillment …

I know life is not as easy as you wished, and I have wished for better too. But we are here today, as a family and I could not have asked for more. Thanks for being there for me, thanks for carrying our child, thanks for having the worst pain in your life delivering our baby. Thanks for Elyas.

I am sorry if I have made you angry, trust me I don’t mean to make you so. Sorry for all the pains I have caused in you heart, all the  distress felt ever since I known you over the last 10 years we have  been together. You are the best thing that had ever happened to me.

I will always be there for you, my dear. I love you with all my heart.

Happy 27th Birthday, my dearest wife.

From Me and Elyas

[Blog trespassed by her husband]

Published in:  on January 31, 2010 at 3:02 am Comments (6)

hurmmmm…

orang kater “one thing could lead to another thing”. selalu terjadi kat saya bila pikir sesuatu perkara pastu jangkit satu perkara pastu kadang-kadang out of blue saya akan buat persoalan yang pelik-pelik.pernah tak terjadi pada anda semua? (ada paham tak apa saya cakap?) hehehe

contohnya:

tgh buat assignment => tiba2 teringat nak diet sbb maybe along nak kawen October-November ni pastu nak kena kurus => tetiba teringat lak budak Jenan nak buat reunion besar-besaran pada November jugak => terasa syoknye kalau dapat join kawan-kawan kat Malaysia => teringat Zaki & Malliza pun mungkin tak jadik g Abu Dhabi sbb syok dok Msia & dgr citer Malliza pun mungkin dapat kerja => terasa syok pulak nak balik Malaysia for good => timbullah persoalan….

Nak dok sini sambil cari kerja yang tak tau dapat ker tak atau balik Malaysia cari kerja insyaAllah boleh dapat sbb lagi senang dari cari kerja kat sini?

hmm kawan-kawan yang baca blog ni apa kata jawab poll saya, saja bosan-bosan tgh tulis logs

pls give comments as well.

*update*

thank you kengkawan for your comments (^_^)

Well the thing yang terasa nak nak balik Msia sbb utama is economy.. Nursery fees kat sini d**n expensive!! boleh up to nearly £200 perweek full time (around £800 permonth boleh amik bibik 8 orang okay kalau kat Msia!). Kalau saya setakat kerja part-time mmg gaji abis nak bayar nursery je walaupun tak amik full time and we are not entitle for child benefit. tapi kalau nak jadik full-time housewife for two years, terasa ruginye belajar penat-penat dan rasa bersalah hutang ngan amak and apak rm80k tuk byr master. plus kalau harapkan adi sorang mmg duit tight giler2 yang giler (ooo..jgn anggap kerja kat UK boleh kaya.. kan malliza kan? heheheh). kalau kat Msia cost for childcare is cheaper and if I’m working and Adi will send money from UK (kalau dok sorang boleh sewa bilik yang far cheaper) dah xde masalah untuk tu. (tak pun dok kat umah mama kat kuantan, cepat sikit byr hutang sbb tak yah byr sewa umahlagipun umah tu banyak ruang kosong…kuangkuangkuang :lol:  ). pendek kater kalau kat msia boleh lah nak usaha camna-camna.  I will try to secure a job in UK first sbb visa pun mati bulan 1, but if I can’t find any job I think the best way is to me & Elyas back to Msia for good even though need to stay apart from Adi. i think maybe lots of people not agree with me or say that i am materialistic, mementingkan duit dari suami sendiri  tapi kalau pun ade economy problem kat msia hati masih boleh lagi senang dan boleh diusaha, tapi kalau kat sini hari2 susah hati dan tak de tempat nak mengadu atau mintak tolong and I think 2 years (or more likely 1 year and half) is not too long and we could make it. pening woo pikir psl duit ni.. kalau postgrad tajaan kerajaan, scholar dapat byk plus gaji msia jalan, spouse n kids dapat elaun. Adi dpt scholar undergrad so xde allowance for spouse n kid. walaupun kerja part time tapi tak cukup gak. this year lagilah terasa sbb saya kerja 8jam je seminggu banding 26 jam sebelom ni.. pening-pening.. kalau lah boleh byr guna bulu, dah lama ku cabut bulu-bulu suami ku buat bayar bills, kan senang?

then the second reason which is a bit selfish, I personally feel the reason I wanna go home is I want to find “myself” and become more socialise. when I went back to Msia last year, I realised that I lost my social skill, I felt really awkward when met my old friends, or mingled in large crowd including my own family, though, i am not a chatter box but i think i socialised better before. i want to feel to have girl friends again that i could hang out (or now maybe yummy mummies hang out together with babies :grin: ) i admit i’m also not a long distance friendship and internet kinda person and you’ll find me pretty boring (like what u read now. bosan kan tulisan saya nih? heheheh) but if u close with me, i’m not too bad boleh lah buat lawak bodo.. acheh, boleh pulak puji diri sendiri…

Published in:  on January 20, 2010 at 9:37 pm Comments (9)